So today was a pretty blah day. I think that I ate too much wheat the past couple days working at IHOP. I had several pancakes and ended up getting sick, not throwing up sick but sick.... yeah.
So I couldn't really go out too much today b/c I needed to stay close to the bathroom. Not pleasant but what are you going to do?

I spent a lot of the day just trying to catch up with old friends, emailing and such. I also did my laundry ^_^ yay!

I did go grocery shopping today and I did go for about a 40 min walk before I got too cold and went back to my apartment.

Still, my main cause of blahness is ... I have no idea. I just don't quite feel at "home" yet here at this apartment. I'm not quite sure why either. I mean my room is halfway to being finished and I will have my desk hopefully this weekend so then I can set up all my art stuff.... I just feel... not included I think would be the best word for it. Which doesn't make sense and that's the best I can come up with. I know that I am paying rent and that I "own" the place as much as the Molly and Lauren and yet I feel as though I don't.

I keep saying that once school starts things are hopefully going to change. However, what if they don't?

I honestly have no idea what I would do.

Personally I think I just need new depression meds. I haven't been quite feeling myself lately. I have talked to my counselor and hopefully I will be able to see her soon and discuss the possibility of a different treatment than the one I've been on. I know that all natural supplements and medications are supposed to be effective however I haven't seen much of change. I've tried St. John's Wort, Vitamin B, Chromium, Sam-e and a few others with no lasting results.

Blah, dysfunctional chemical makeups are such a pain in the ass.

I have to work tomorrow and thursday so hopefully that will distract me quite a bit. I also am working saturday and sunday and then school starts up on Monday. Oh the joy.

Have you ever had moments when you sat down and just wondered how in the world you got to this point in your life? Good or bad, just wondered how it actually happened that one second you were 8 and now your 22?
I just find it odd that right now I'm confined in a wooden box, surrounded by people also in wooden boxes, sitting on the surface of the earth trying to get by and Live... for what who knows. Sometimes being alive just doesn't make sense. I wish I were a tree or something. A tree some place warm, but not the rain forest, the spiders are too big.

So today was another blah day. I didn't do much except walk.

I walked from Lesley all the way to Kendell Square to fill out an application and drop off a resume at Legal Seafoods. Unfortunately Cheesecake Factory had filled all positions >,< grrr
After that I hopped the 'T' to Chinatown and filled out an application and dropped off a resume a catering place that works throughout Boston/Cambridge area. I think I may have been hired but I have no idea until I get a call back from them.

I think I'm going to call RGIS again and see how the transfer is going because the sooner I can work and make some money the better. Plus, I thought that this was supposed to be one of their busy seasons.. shouldn't they want more help?

I can't believe that school starts in two weeks though. It seems so soon. It's amazing how fast the break has gone by. It will be nice to be back in school again... I guess. I'm sure that right now the idea appears a lot nicer than it may actually be.

Everything will sort itself out eventually, right?

So work today was interesting. I waitressed at IHop.
At first it was really slow because of the weather and then it picked up.. a lot.
Or at least I thought it did.
One second I had three tables and then suddenly I had seven. O.o?! What's up with that?
Still I ended up making pretty good money for the day so I'm cool with that.

It's been a lot more difficult finding a job than I thought it would be. I guess I shouldn't be too surprised with how bad the economy is. I'm worried though. I would love to be able to pay all my bills on time though. haha. I have hope that it will all work out somehow though. Just stay optimistic right?

I'm in quite an odd mood at the moment. I really do feel like I'm suspended in limbo. I'm not exactly happy and I'm not exactly sad... I'm just existing.

On Sunday I worked at Ihop from 3pm till 9pm. On my way out of work I received a call from my mum saying that she got into a fight with my grandparents at my brothers hockey game. Words were said, hurtful messages exchanged and a lot of mixed emotions were left over. So I decided that after work I would spend the night at home with my mum trying to damage control. It didn't really work. My grandparents are still angry at the next grain of sand they happened to come across, and my mum is still not really cooperating. Not that I can blame her ya know? I would be fed up by now too if I had to deal with their judgments day in and day out.

The night at home was informative though. The boy from Florida that was drafted to my brother's hockey team, the Cyclones, is sick with the flu. Apparently his mum and my mum are having a disagreement over how my mum should be taking care of Andrew, the boy from Florida. I can understand that Andrew's mum is probably worried and really wants to make sure that her son has everything that he could possibly need and, my mum also works full time and runs my brother to his own hockey and counseling appointments and can't really afford to stay at home to look after Andrew who is pretty much just sleeping and throwing up. So I stayed home so that Andrew's mum would stop calling my mum. Not very exciting. I mostly watched movies off of On Demand.

I did also take my brother to his psychology appointment though. He is going for anger management which is good. Hopefully this will help him with some of the other issues he has been dealing with. He needs to get back on track some how and the guy he is seeing seems pretty cool. His wife teaches at UMass Boston and works at Harvard. She just got her PhD in linguistics and has been doing research for Harvard for eleven years on Japanese. I'm so jealous of how many times she's been over there. Peter, my brother's counselor, gave me her number to contact her and see what I can learn about possibly getting a job over there teaching English or something along those lines. I think I'm just more interested in learning Japanese.

Right now, I'm at my mum's sitting in her bed trying to decide when to go back to Somerville. I finally got the insurance info I needed to finish and send out so that I can get my car fixed. However, it still has to be appraised before they will give me money to get it fixed. I have no idea how that is supposed to happen while there in NY and I'm in MA and NH. I'm thinking that the Liberty Mutual branch from my area will appraise my car and then send the NY branch the info. That seems to make the most sense. Can I just say that I will be so happy when my car is fixed and I'm not driving around without a back bumper and right tail light? I feel like I have a gaping, festering wound on the back of my car. It will be nice to blend into traffic again.

I also wrote a letter to the universe today asking for help in finding a boyfriend. I haven't forgotten yet. I don't know exactly what to do with the letter. Do I keep it? Do I burn it? Do I toss it up and throw it to the elements? For now I'll keep it and I'm hoping that something will happen sometime soon.

Here's wishing! Night everyone.

So I am going to be dating everything as 2008 instead of 2009 because for the whole year of 2008 I actually wrote 2007 for everything. Of course right when I start getting used to the new "old" year is when it has to go and change.

So my day wasn't too bad. I worked pretty much all day. 8 am till about 4pm.

Work was pretty slow. I still made money and I didn't have more than four tables at a time. Still, even though it wasn't too too busy there was still plenty (if not more) drama. I do not understand why things can not just run smoothly. However,in my mind, a lot of petty things kept happening. None the less, I may not be working there too much longer. I do not know. I think that it would be easier to get a job closer to my apartment. Yet, I do not want to give up the potential money I have to make....
I guess I just have to take a risk and see right?

So after I got off work I just drove straight back to Somerville, even with all the snow. I, personally, did not think that the weather was that bad. The roads were a bit slippery but not what I had thought they were going to be. That may be because a lot of the snow had stopped by then and the trucks had time to clean them. It only took me about an hour to get back. I also finally figured out how to get to my apartment from exit 28. So, now I know how to get to my apartment from exit 31, 30 and 28.Pretty snazzy huh.

Once I got home I just took a shower and got ready for the party that Molly and Lauren planned. The apartment looked really nice. The two of them put in more than enough work and I was so shocked by how nice and lived in the apartment felt. I feel like it's really starting to get a more homey feel to it. I think that once I put my stuff up and away I will feel a bit more at home too because then I'll have my stuff in the apartment as well.

The party was fun too. We all just stood around and talked and then we had a dance party in the empty room b/c we could. I think our neighbors would have hated us if it wasn't new years and one wasn't home. So we'll find out later. I did have a slight problem with the lady who lives downstairs on the first floor and the driveways. Apparently she paid to park in the driveway, for how long I have no idea b/c included in our rent is pay for the whole driveway. So, I guess I'm going to have to have a conscious dialogue with her later and see what happens. Finally get to use some Kripalu methods and see how they work.

Lots of people came tonight and I was so excited b/c I like having everyone see our place. Kris and his lover came, a few of Molly's friends ( Janelle & her boyfriend, and Meghan and her BF), Nyacko came and so did Pete, Lisa came with Shane and Sequoia, Leif and Kira, and Jen who is staying for the week. Yay! Lots of peeps and lots of reminiscing and memories.

I ended up not going to be till about 3 am. O.o? It's a good thing I'm not working today because I think I would have to kill myself with a caffeine overdose. Still, we have lots planned for the day. I want to finally get my room in order and slightly decorated. Then grocery shopping and Hot yoga with Jen. Also I would like to walk around and see where I could possibly work at. I think I may call my old inventory job and see if I could work there for a bit until I really find something just because I can and it's money ya know?

However, my main priority is getting my room all set and starting on my New Years Resolution (which was very kindly stolen from Jen ;)) which is to be myself ALL of the time. Trying not to be fake and put on faces, but to stay open and true and own my own inner dork.

So...Merry Christmas to all who celebrate it. And, if not, Happy Holidays.

I've had a glorious day.

I went to work today for 8am. The morning started out slow. We had one server call out, so there was only six of us, three on each side and no hostess or register person.

Slowly as the hours went by it began to get busier and busier until it was busy enough that we just couldn't keep up.We had a line out the door waiting to be seated, a line at the register waiting to pay, and tables that we still hadn't gotten to.

One table that I was really nice and left me their bill on the table with a tip. So there was a $50 bill on one of my tables. The bussers cleaned it for me and then a party was sat and when Iwent to grab the bill it had mysteriously "dissappeared." Literally in the time it took me to see the bill, turn around to drop off a check and turn back around it was gone.
The party, and they weren't young, said that the money was never on the table. However, we all saw the bill and no one grabbed... so I guess the elves took it >.>...... right.

So I had to pay for the bill which just sucks. Why would someone do that? On Christmas no less?

After that it was just so hectic. No matter what I did I was always a few tables behind and because of what happened I wasn't in a good mood. I was really pissed off and just wanted to go. Also, because it was so busy and we didn't really have enough people to handle it the restaurant started to get a bit messy. Once it got messy it made me want to be there even less because I thought it just looked really bad and that just put me in an even worse mood.

So I was in a bad mood and because I was waitressing I had to be cheerful and polite AND since it was Christmas I had to be cheerful, polite and chipper! I had to be really delightful when I really just wanted to throw glass cups and watch them smash. IT just kept getting busier and busier and no one could get a chance to catch up and clean and get everything together. Then something happened on the other side. I don't know what happened I just know that all of a sudden the other three waitresses all kind of left at the same time.... yeah. So now I was taking tables on different sides of the restaurants and there were only 3 servers on.

Long story short, I had to be nice and I was just really tired and crabby and not in the mood to be working and I ended up staying till about 6pm taking tables and cleaning because the place was a mess. Sure I made money and I just don't feel like it was worth it.

After that I went home and opened gifts but it just didn't feel the same because I missed opening them with everyone ya know? I was just sitting in a corner, all by myself, no one was really paying attention and it was just me and a few things.

Then I took a shower and we went to Jeff's parents where we talked for awhile and opned a few gifts.

It was not my idea of a holiday. In fact I don't even feel like it was Christmas. I don't feel the Christmas cheer or the holiday cheer. I just want things to look up for once.

Who knows. Maybe something nice will happen?

So today was a pretty stressful day. It started out okay. I just had to make sure that my brother got to school on time.. or as close to on time as I could. Which as I said was no big deal. Then after that I read for a bit, had lunch, and watched a movie.

Around 11:30 my mum's boyfriend called. Apparently my mum got into a "small accident" this morning. When she was driving she hit an icy patch, did a 360 and then slid into a snow bank. She brought her car to a garage to have it looked at and then got a ride to work. Apparently she needed someone to pick her car up from the garage and then take it to the transmission place in Windham, NH. So she called her boyfriend to come get me so we could go to the garage, get her car, bring it to the transmission place, and then bring me home.

No problem right?

WRONG.

The whole time I was in the car with my mum's boyfriend... let's just say that my patience was tried. First we had to go through the whole "you're a bad driver" conversation. We had to go through my accidents and how when a person says "it not my fault" or "it was all there fault" it means that they are the "wrong" type of person. Whatever that means.... Then, because I wasn't already angry enough we got into a conversation about how my working on Christmas eve and Christmas is how I'm punishing my family. O.o?! What? Where did that come from?! I'm not trying to punish anyone. Excuse me for being a little selfish for a bit and trying to work to make money to pay for an apartment to move out. The rest of the car ride was rather silent.

Later when I finally got home I changed and got all set to go to Cambridge for a job interview. The interview wasn't bad... and it wasn't good. I'm not quite sure how it went. The person who interviewed me wanted me to make him laugh... >.>.... yeah...
I don't really have a repertoire of jokes, although now I feel as though I should. We ended up talking for a while about my massage job and why I was moving to Somerville and my schooling. Then the whole interview ended with "well, I can't tell you anything right now so I'll probably end up calling you on the 28th. Thanks for stopping by."

That's a NO if I ever heard one. ::Sigh::

Oh well. I guess I'll just keep trying.

There's a Planet Fitness opening up in Porter Square that I applied at and so I'm hoping that they will give me an interview. If not I guess when I moved down I can just walk around and try to find a place that is hiring. If that still doesn't turn up anything I am going to keep my job at IHOP and work there a couple days a week until I find something.

Speaking of which I am so excited to be moving soon. Hopefully on the 29th. I can't wait even though I don't have a bed... or any furniture...and I haven't really packed up any of my stuff. I'm sure it will work out in the end. I hope.

And to top it all off it's almost Christmas and i still haven't done any of my gifts. none... nada... zip. So I'm really stressed. I'm stressed about Christmas, I'm stressed about gifts, I'm stressed about working, I'm stressed about finding a job, I'm stressed about moving, I'm stressed about having money for moving, I'm stressed about energy leaks >.< ARGH! This is why I didn't want to move home in the first place. I feel as though my family is sucking the life out of me.

I can't wait to move.

So because I always like to try new things ... >.> yeah.... I convinced Tegan to take a pole dancing class with me.
Let me just say that I never thought I was really uncoordinated until I took this class. Do you know how hard it is to try to look sexy and hold onto a pole while spinning and circling your hips?! O.o Damn near impossible! Plus the moves aren't as easy as the dancers make them look. I'm using muscles that I have never even known I had.
Our instructor is really cool though. She can do moves that would make any normal person look like a dork and look totally cool doing it. Plus she's not that old either which is really good. I was afraid that everyone in the class was going to old and wrinkly and doing it for kicks but there are two other girls about my age and then most of the women are about my mum's age or younger. So it's wicked awesome group to be working with.
I must say that I did get mirror shy. It's hard to dance in front of people you know and touch your self let alone 7 people you don't know wand rub your hands up and down your body. I just don't know why I can't do it? I'm sure that all it is going to take is a lot of practice but for right now... yeah I look like Aunt Jemima trying seduce Mr. Clean.

Still I'm looking forward to the next class!

Well... I just noticed that I haven't posted on livejournal in a really really really really .... really long time. A lot has happened but I'll give the short version. Ready?

school ended, I moved, I have summer classes, work sucks, I need more money and I never have enough time to do what I need

Yeah, life continues on like normal.

I just noticed that Tegan is the only person who really posts comments on my LJ. Am i loved or what haha.
I wonder in anyone else even reads this... hmmm do I risk the chance and post really juicy and interesting deep and dark details of myself?


>.>


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-.- nah... I'm not a risk taker.... ::sigh::

Well, it is almost time to go back to school, back to the grueling schedule of 4 am wake up calls and 16 hour days -.- ::sigh:: I'm so not looking forward to that.

On the other note I'm learning actually moves and routines in my massage therapy class although I think Anatomy and Physiology, while interesting, is definitely going to kill me. So much work.

Also I'm going to be moving!!! April 15th! I will be leaving and......... moving down the street. haha. We're going to be moving into the old apartment we had at my grandmother's farm house so that we can sell this house for lots of money and pay off all of my step dad's medical bills from his heart attacks so he doesn't have to claim bankruptcy and screw us all over. Although I think he's going to die soon. He went back to smoking a pack of cigarettes a day! A pack! I think of plenty of other suicide options that are a lot quicker and a lot less painful then having your heart slowly stop >< but oh well not my choice right?

My mum seems to be in better spirits because of it though. I think that's because it will be taking a lot of stress off of her and being close to my grandparents is comforting. My grandmother likes to help out ya know? They're going to fix up the apartment we're going to be living in. Small things like expanding one room, making the bathroom larger to fit a washer and dryer, redoing the kitchen floor... etc etc. It should be nice I just can't believe it's happening so quick! April 15th! That's not far away.

Other than that exciting news I've just been getting ready for school. Figuring out my schedule, getting books and notebooks, seeing how work will fit in etc. I'm not too happy about going back to class. Break wasn't really a break for me. Out of the whole month off I only had 4 days I didn't work. I took off tues, wed and thurs of this week but I still have night class and an A&P test to study for so it wasn't too much of a break. I'm just tired is all. I feel like I haven't done anything ya know? And all that work and now I'm going back to school to work some more and and then work on the weekends and blah blah blah. It just gets exhausting after awhile. Only a year though. In a year I'll have my license and I can work work and not have to do two jobs and have a little more free time... or that's what I keep telling myself anyway. Knowing my luck the only break I get will be when I die.

Snow. It snowed today. Why? Why did it need to snow?! >< Argh snow just pisses me off. It just gets in the way and you have to shovel it and then my car doesn't start and ... grrr.

On top of the snow my day was absolutely lousy. I think I"m getting sick and I had to work all day and then I have to work tomorrow from 8 -3.

BUT I am going to first night in Boston tomorrow so I'm wicked excited about that. Hopefully it will be a good time.

Happy new year's everyone!

So today while working in Shaw's I got in trouble. Trouble for what you may ask? For talking >< A few other cashiers and I were having a conversation about spiders. Anway I told a story I heard when I was little from my mum about when she was working in the army about how a spider laid eggs in a guys back. Of course with all gross stories it was quickly getting passed around the register. We were all having a good time until this lady at one of the registers got wicked offended and yelled at all of us saying that we were being inappropriate and to be quite. So we were. Later my manager comes down and has me go into the side closet with her >.> yeah... little creppy until she starts telling me off for telling inappropriate stories and not paying attention to the customers and talking too much. Apparently the lady called the store back and completly exgagerated the story saying she asked us to stop numerous times and her kids were all tramatized etc etc. >.> .. right. I say she was just being a pain. >< But still! I got in trouble for it. -.- ::sigh:: some people.
I'm so tired of working and work and having to work and being at work and going to work and just WORK in general. I think I need a break.

Well Christmas is over although it didn't even feel like Christmas. Now I'm sitting at home trying to figure out how to get my life in order before school starts back up again. Still I can't help but feel like I never got a break. I went from midterms to finals to working 7 hrs a day for week to christmas back to working and no break in between ><. The money is nice but all that is going to textbooks and commuter rail passes and paying off the rest of my credit card bills and debt to various relatives. I still need to figure out a budget and start saving so that during the summer I can take summer classes and language classes and maybe figure out how to get my own place and move out ^.^ Yay for moving!!

BUT through all of that I would still like to DO something.. something spectacular and break worthy.... something that I'll be able to tell stories about and rant about rather than complain about how stupid the people at shaws are and how boring RGIS is.
I want to go dancing, I want to travel, I want to have an "interesting" experience.... maybe I can get abducted by aliens. lol.

So yeah. Now I'm trying to deal with that restlessness you get when you finish a large project and then just don't know what to do with yourself. I've been trying to give myself other tasks to do but it just hasn't been working. I just don't really have the time because I'm still working alot and I know I need to work but I need something else to do besides work. I can't define myself by my work! How pathetic an existence is that O.o?!

Grrrr...

Well if anyone has any ideas OR if anyone wants to do something exciting like going dancing ^.^ Then please message me.

You know I think I'd even be up for naked beer slides....

Today was my French final. Definetly wasn't as bad as I thought i was going to be. Yet again I was surprised by how much I actually remembered not only from studying but stuff I hadn't gone over. It was just there... like magic ^_^

Other good news is that at least Janette is going to Anime Boston with Tegan and I. YAY!!! Now all I have to wait for is the two Christina's although X-tina may have said yes already but I just haven't checked my facebook.. >.> oops?

Still as my finals wind down my spirits lift up. Until I go Christmas shopping and become super poor -.- ::sigh:: it never ends. But Two finals down and 5 more to go. My lifespan and sociology at Lesley and then Ethics, Psych and Touch at Salter. Hopefully I will get my Lifespan and Sociology stuff down this weekend. Lifespan is a takehome so all I have to do is type it out (have another stupid essay >< dammit! How many essays can one professor give!) and Sociology I just have to make a study guide and then go over my quiz's... hopefully won't be that bad. Ethics and Pysch at Salter shouldn't be too bad as long as I go over all my chapters... unfortunetly there are quite a few BUT I have high hopes for myself and as for Touch... well I'll find out tonight what we're going to be doing for that. I really can't wait till finals are over. Sure all I'll be doing is working but it will still be a nice break from studying and classes for about 2 weeks till my night classes start up again. I'm looking forward to it though. I like my night classes they're really hands on so when I leave I feel like I've learned a lot which is nice. Still two weeks what am I going to do? ^_______^

Today I went to the Chiropractors and it was wonderful. Apparently my neck bones are completely straight, called a military neck, and they are supposed to be curved slightly forward. Also my left hip is higher than my right and my knees are rotated in the wrong directions. The guy I went to let me keep the x rays so it's really cool to see ^_^

Anyway the session was interesting to say the least. I've never been to a chiropractor before so I didn't know what to expect. It was pretty odd hearing all the crunching and popping coming out of my neck and spine. I also expected it to hurt but it didn't. Sometimes there was a lot of pressure but no actual pain. This guy also worked on my ankles and wrists and boy were my wrists out of wack. I kind of expected it because of my carpal tunnel but they made a lot of noise when he was realigning the bone and I can't even begin to tell you how much better they feel. XD It's amazing!!

I'm probably go to go back to this guy because my knees and hip need more work. The're alignment was so off it wasn't something he could push back in one session but still... these x rays... so cooL! Now all I need is to get an MRI... >.> hmmm... I'm supposed to get one but I'm too nervoux -.- plus it's expensive and I can't pay for it yet. grrrr...

Besides that I just have finals to study for. It's such a stressful yet releasing feeling having finals. Stressful because you have to study but rleasing because now you know it's over ... for a little while anyways and soon... soon it will be the holidays. God I can't wait till that's over. I dislike the holidays because all I do is run around from one place to another. I don't actually get to rest. >< Then after that all I'm going to do is work my bum off so I can make lots of money to pay off my bills. Paying off my bills will be a HUGE weight lifted off of my chest. Plus there's anime boston to look forward too as well ^_^ YAY!

Well, yet again I've not posted in forever. Mostly because of finals and work and school work and just life in general but now that things are semi starting to wind down I'm hoping to get back into writing a little more. I just never know what to say though so all that ends up coming out is useless dribble. Anyway, finals are coming up and that's hectic and then Christmas is coming up and that's hectic and then I still have work and money is coming and going and >< argh! I just want it to end!!

Soon, it will be done soon right? I just have to somehow make it through this crazy christmas season.

I'm excited for break. It will be nice not to have to worry about school for about a week and then it's back to the grindstone. I keep telling myself that once this year is up and I finally have my massage therapy liscense that all of this work and stress will be worth it. I KNOW it will be so worth it... that hard part is making it through the year and all the classes. It's just so tiresome having all these classes and juggling work and homework and everything. BUT, i ENJOY my classes.... well for the most part anyway and I really really want to get my massage therapy liscense so that I can move into boston and have a good job and hopefully a nice place and all. I want to be able to do stuff and travel and in order to do that I need a good job so I can pay off all my debt... >.> ... yeah....

::blah:: Christmas and winter always put me in odd moods..

Today tegan and I went to boston. Well... first we waited at the Lowell train station for two hours because we missed the 9am train and the next one wasn't until 11 and then we went to Boston. Once there we just hopped the red line to cambridge and hung out at Harvard Square and then my school. We walked around a lot... a lot a lot. It was really cold but we went to the anime store and looked around and then at Porter mall we had a GIANT bowl or ramen and I mean GIANT bowl, with some green gyoza... don't ask me why the were green -.- I don't really want to know....

Tegan bought some sandals for one of her cosplay outfits and I looked longingly at bento boxes ::sigh:: I want one. I also got lots of wonderful X-mas ideas so if you want something different you better give me hint.

On the way home Tegan and I came up with a wicked awesome idea for an O'hallows Eve costume. I'm going to be a ghost from pack man!! ^_____^ Think about it, it's wicked easy to make all you need is a colored sheet thrown over your head and a squiggly white line for a mouth. You can pretty much where what ever you want underneath and when people finally figure out what it is, they'll love you for it!! I mean come one who doesn't like or know pac man?!

Right now though I'm procrastinating. I'm supposed to be studying for mid terms but yeah... we can see how well that's going haha.

Today... Tegan and I figured out something very profound about ourselves.... yes it was life changing, mind boggling..... and all I have to say is:

Have I told
you lately
that I love you...
Have I told you
there's no one else
above you...
You fill my heart with gladness
take away all my sadness
Ease my trouble that's what you do

^_^

Cheers darling!

Today tegan and I saw The Illusionist... it was good. Not great, not spectacular but good. I think the acting was a little flat but oh well.
On the way home we got into an interesting conversation about doctors. Mainly me expressing my dislike for them especially as a child. I said " doctors are just sadistic pedophiles. Think about it, they get to see little kids naked and stick things in them." =^^= not my best or nicest comment but hey? what are you going to do. This led tegan to say that if I was a guy I'd become a rapist. I said why do I need to be a guy? Well, it may be a little harder to rape men as a women.... you'd probably have to get a strap on haha. Yeah I'll walk up to someone 'hey I'm going to rape you' 'Cool!' '...with This! MWAHAHAHAHA.' O.o?!

-.- okay so we're a little .. or I'm a little insane not something most people didn't know already. But you better watch out ^.^ I have hands like a rapist! You never know what I may do MWAHAHAHAHA.